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Drowning in angst fic
Mar. 28th, 2012 03:18 amI have just ploughed through a dozen of the saddest Homestuck fics ever written; I've got an emotional knot in my chest like my dog just died and not even rereading the latest chapter of General Vantas Gets Hitched is working to dissolve it.
Unlike my usual angstwallows, this is not one I sought out. It sprang upon me from ambush. I was looking for happy things! Shenanigans! Plotless dreambubble-paradises where the Signless Sufferer gets cuddles and cake would not have been turned down. Instead I got angst after angst after angst until I am all but whimpering, because it was amazingly well-done angst that would not let me click away.
Maybe it was as much me as the fics, though, because one of the things I reread was Lost Teeth Like White Jewels, and in the dozen or so times I've read it, I only get the feelslikeI'mgonnabreak reaction about half the time.
That fic, though... That fic is a shining example of the real reason I have a rule against reading WIP fics. Not the sadness and frustration I feel when things trail off into abandonment. No, it's the ones that make you feel you've simultanously been kicked by a rogue elephant and will not be able to draw your next breath if you don't get more right now that remind me why I try not to get involved before the story's finished. EVERYTHING IS BROKEN AND EVERYTHING HURTS, AND THEY'RE ALL BEAUTIFUL AND I WILL DIE IF THEY DON'T GET SOME MEASURE OF JOY.
When I have mastered this fandom, there will be storms of recs.
Unlike my usual angstwallows, this is not one I sought out. It sprang upon me from ambush. I was looking for happy things! Shenanigans! Plotless dreambubble-paradises where the Signless Sufferer gets cuddles and cake would not have been turned down. Instead I got angst after angst after angst until I am all but whimpering, because it was amazingly well-done angst that would not let me click away.
Maybe it was as much me as the fics, though, because one of the things I reread was Lost Teeth Like White Jewels, and in the dozen or so times I've read it, I only get the feelslikeI'mgonnabreak reaction about half the time.
That fic, though... That fic is a shining example of the real reason I have a rule against reading WIP fics. Not the sadness and frustration I feel when things trail off into abandonment. No, it's the ones that make you feel you've simultanously been kicked by a rogue elephant and will not be able to draw your next breath if you don't get more right now that remind me why I try not to get involved before the story's finished. EVERYTHING IS BROKEN AND EVERYTHING HURTS, AND THEY'RE ALL BEAUTIFUL AND I WILL DIE IF THEY DON'T GET SOME MEASURE OF JOY.
When I have mastered this fandom, there will be storms of recs.